Am I supposed to be learning to keep my mouth shut? Is that maturity? Is that growing up? If I had just stopped myself and thought about it for a second, maybe I wouldn't have said the things I said.
Why do I want to run away from conflicts with other people? I would rather stop being friends with someone than tell them that what they said or did really sucked. Guess what, I don't care what so-and-so said to you. Not as it pertains to me. Yes, I care that it hurt you, but if you think I'm going to get in the middle of it you've got something else coming.
Why won't I tell people when they hurt my feelings? Oh yeah, because they can't handle it. Oh wait, did I just try to be honest with you? What the hell was I thinking?! Can I handle it? Do people tell me when I hurt their feelings? Do I care? Probably way too much. That's why I don't risk it. It would be peachy if I didn't give a shit.
Guess what, you're not worth it to me if you don't have the guts to be honest with me. I'm fine with it if you'd rather not be friends with me. Just run away, apparently that's what I do. But if you want to be my friend, own up. If I think I can be honest with you, then maybe we can be friends.
Oh wait, was that anger? I guess I have more growing up to do.
